Monday, September 28, 2009

I have hesitated about posting this, but always pride myself on being “real”, so here goes. I am not complaining about my current situation only processing. There is a difference.

Isaiah 55:8-11
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

About 8-9 months ago, R and I talked about the possibility of adding another member to our family. We talked about C and the new sibling being about 2 years apart. We talked about C “graduating” from Nana’s just in time for a new sibling to take her spot. We talked about the challenges of having two young children, but we also talked about the joys. In my mind, it was something we could handle. Childcare wouldn’t be a problem. Money would be tight (isn’t it always?) but we’d make it work. My 80% work schedule would allow me to spend every other Friday with one of our children. One Friday would be special time with C and the next would be special time with the new sibling. We’d be able to keep driving my Accord and R could keep driving his truck. We’d be snug in our house, but we’d fit just fine. We’d be able to start a second 403(b) college savings account for the new sibling and continue contributing to C’s monthly. I have two hands, so in my mind I would be able to manage having two children. I had it ALL figured out.

And friends, I am here to admit to you all that I don’t have ANYTHING figured out at this point. With the news that God has decided to bless our family with twins, my “plans” have been completely obliterated. Nana doesn’t have two infant spots available for the twins, so that puts us back at square one for finding childcare. Do we look for a nanny? How does one go about looking for a nanny? We knew money would be tight when we added one child. I have no concept of how we’re going to make things work when we add two children. With both of us working, money will be tight. If one of us was to stop working, we wouldn’t be able to buy diapers or pay for insurance. The college savings accounts are going to have to be put on hold. That’s for sure. You all know that R’s truck has gone bye-bye and we are now minivan owners. Our once small-seeming house seems even smaller, and yet, we don’t have the option of moving at this point. The plan to spend every other Friday with one sibling isn’t really going to work now. And the whole idea about me having two hands for two kids is laughable now that there will be a total of three children and I still only have two hands.

How will I be able to give the boys all the attention they need while giving my precious C all the attention she needs while still maintaining my marriage and giving R the consideration and attention he needs and deserves? How will I maintain the friendships that have become so important to me when I’m spending so much time in survival mode? Will my friends think I’ve fallen off the face of the earth? And then we get to the practical concerns…How will I keep all of us fed and clothed? How will I juggle it all? HOW?

Everyone says, “Oh don’t worry! Everything will work out!” Someone said to me the other day, “Oh, Corrie, where’s your faith?” I think that was supposed to make me feel better. She didn’t realize that many mornings it takes all the faith I can muster to even get up and face the day. But then I have to remember what faith is. It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things not seen. That is from Hebrews 11:1. I memorized that verse in college and it has applied so well in so many circumstances.

I have no doubt that God knows and can fully handle all of these questions and concerns. He just doesn’t seem to want to let me in on how exactly He’s planning on doing that. I suppose He wants to receive the praise when everything DOES in fact work out and none of us are going hungry or going without diapers. He wants me to know that He is the one who will orchestrate the childcare conundrum. He wants me to know and to trust that He will use me to give each of my children what they need and that He will sustain my marriage and friendship with R in the midst of chaos. He wants me to see that He’s painting this picture, and I’m merely a color on the canvas. He’s not going to reveal the grand picture until He’s good and ready. He doesn’t want me taking the credit for ANY of the masterpiece I’m certain He’s painting.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Pics of the Boys!

After some work by my live-in computer technician (he plugged in a cord!) we got the scanner working, so I'm happy to introduce y'all to the boys! I'm not posting any of their "boy part" pictures. Y'all will just have to trust me that all parts are clear and accounted for! The first two pics are of Reid. He's Twin A because he's closest to my cervix. We went ahead and named Twin A Reid since that was the first name we had picked out.

Mr. Chase (Twin B) is next. I love how he appears to be sucking his thumb in the profile pic!
And for those of you who thought I looked "tiny" or "not large enough to be carrying twins" in the 20 week picture I posted, I'll just tell you that the outfit, plus the angle, plus the time of day made it only APPEAR to be the case. Here I am this evening at 21 weeks and 2 days. I'm getting larger by the minute! And these boys are active!!

We're working hard to stay healthy around here. C is keeping us on our toes! Most of you saw this pic on Facebook this weekend, but just in case you missed it, here's the cutest little Aggie fan around!
Thanks, as always, for the encouragement you offer. You can't possibly know how much it means to me! Be blessed, my friends!

Monday, September 14, 2009

(Over) Halfway There!

Well, folks Saturday marked 20 weeks pregnant for me! Everything I’ve read says average for twins is 36 weeks, but I’m shooting for AT LEAST 37. I want some big, strapping boys! Even so, it is doubtful that I’ll make it to 40 weeks which is why the title of this post is “(Over) Halfway There!” This picture was taken this morning at 20 weeks and 2 days.After about 12 weeks I got a reprieve from having to get up in the night to go to the bathroom. Well, that is over for now. Also, my extreme hunger has returned. These boys are hungry!!

Mom, C and I went shopping this weekend for the bedding fabric for the boys’ room. I’m pleased with what we got. I knew I wanted some red, navy and khaki PLUS I wanted some corduroy. Mom promises she’s up for the task of making bumpers, dust ruffles for two cribs! Here are some swatches of the fabrics we ended up with.
We also ordered the cribs, and they should arrive sometime in late September. They are convertible only to a toddler bed, so they are a little smaller than most. That is what we were going for since they’ll both be in the same room! They are chocolate wood finish.

And Sweet C! This girl has my heart wrapped around her little finger. Here is a picture of her from this weekend throwing money in the “mountain” (fountain) at the outlet mall. She cracked me up with something she said, so I must share. We’ve been talking to her lots about all the things God made. God made the rain, God made the flowers, God made the animals, etc. On Saturday morning, she smelled kind of ripe, so I said, “Clara, who made a poopy?” She quickly replied, “Gawd!”
And here she is doing one of her FAVORITE activities…chalking! Can you see the excitement on her face? And the major curly bed-head? She is her daddy’s child!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

First Haircut!

Miss Priss got her first hair cut today! Miss Jennifer didn't cut much. She just did some snipping to shape it up and even out the back. It made her curls even curlier which was ideal! You can see from the picture (this was before any cutting happened!) that she was bribed with a sucker ("cany") while Jennifer snipped and then treated to lunch at her favorite place (Chic-Fil-A or "Chick-play") for being such a good girl!

Oh, and notice her new shoes? She had been limping any time we put her grey New Balance shoes on. We thought she was just being dramatic, but come to find out they were an entire size too small! Bad us! She's now wearing a size 8! Whoa!

Oh and one other thing. I got the first official kick from the boys today. It wasn't a flutter but a real-deal, true KICK! It happened twice while we were eating at Chic-Fil-A and has happened several times this evening. I think that is my favorite thing about being pregnant!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

**UPDATE**: Did NOT go well AT ALL! After letting her cry hysterically for over an hour, Ryan dug the bag of pacis out of the trashcan. I just can't handle seeing her so upset over something so relatively insignificant. Odds are she's going to have braces someday anyway. Odds also are that she'll outgrow her paci before she goes to Kindergarten. I'm trying to give myself (and her) a little slack!

Pray for us, friends. Operation "No More Paci" comences tonight at 8:00 p.m. We're going cold turkey. The whole bag is going in the trash and the monitor is being turned off. It has to happen. R and I are both feeling strong enough to do this. She's just gotten obsessively attached to it, and it must end.

(So I was TOTALLY serious about the "pray for us" part!)

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Walker & Texas Ranger

Although in Ryan's guest-post he called the boys "Hans" and "Franz", he's decided he wants to change their names to "Walker" and "Texas Ranger" as kind of a tribute to one of his heroes, Ricky Bobby! Oh, the man certainly keeps me laughing!!

Our scanner is having some issues right now, so I can't post any actual pictures of the boys. Boo! Reid is Baby A which means he's closest to my cervix and will more than likely be the first one born. He's the first one we saw during the sonogram. The tech flashed over his boy-parts, and I saw them, but I think she wanted another look before she announced it to the room. You should have seen the high-fives going between my parents and Ryan. It was at that point that Ryan got up from his seat and he didn't sit down again for the rest of the sonogram. The tech went over to Baby B next. I had just told her that we already had a 20 month old baby girl when she said, "Well, it looks like you've got two boys this time!" And with those words we learned we had Chase instead of Chandler in there!

Once she finished up and did all the measurements and made sure both boys looked good and checked out, I was more relieved about that than I was about determining the gender. I was really, really just excited for Ryan to have sons. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled to have two boys! C can still be my Princess and rule the roost! The boys can torment and protect her depending on the situation! He he! The best news is that both boys weigh exactly 9 oz. so one isn't "taking" more than his fair share right now. The doctor said there was 0% discrepancy in their size. My cervix is also really long (?) which I am told is another good thing. My BP and weight are good. I'm up to 10 pounds total and feeling pretty darn good!

Here's the scene in the room once the sonogram wrapped up...Ryan and I are each holding a pack of blue Orbit gum. He had two pink packs in his pocket. We were so glad that my mom and dad got to be there for the exciting news!

[As soon as the scanner starts working again, I'll post some pics of the boys!]

And in other news, we are officially minivan owners as of this afternoon. We spend ALL DAY yesterday driving around D/FW dealing with some slimy used car salesmen (gag!!) but ultimately decided on going with a van we test drove in Temple earlier in the week. We're so pleased! It is a 2007 Toyota Sienna. The previous owner took excellent care of it and we plan on keeping that up! C LOVES being so high up! She's constantly searching for horses and cows out the window now! We're going to have a DVD player installed within the next couple of weeks. Ryan feels like it is a must for a family with 3 kids. I just say, whatever!

Here I am before I drove it off the lot this afternoon. They had it all nice and detailed for us, and I enjoyed driving it this evening!

So that's it, folks. We're happy to be all under the same roof tonight. C has been with my Aunt and Grandparents in D/FW all week. We missed her like crazy, and we're pretty sure she missed us too. One of her new(er) cute things is this...When we say, "Who made the flowers?" she says, "Gawd!" Her little twang is about the sweetest thing ever! We've also been working on saying "baby brudders"!

Hope you all have a restful Labor Day! Hugs to each of you!!

Thursday, September 3, 2009


Corrie and her mother are out shopping so she wanted me to update her blog.

And the verdict is........

Two boys!!

Baby A = Reid Michael "Hans"
Baby B = Chase Logan "Franz"

Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. Babies are looking healthy and weigh the EXACT same. They are definitely fraternal.

C and C are now out numbered!

The proud daddy

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Take a guess...

Just because I think it would be interesting to see what y'all think AND because I truly have NO IDEA (no "mother's intuition" or anything like that) please leave a comment between now and Thursday at noon and make your best guess!

Are we having Boy/Boy twins? Girl/Girl twins? or Boy/Girl twins?

Let me know if you have any reason behind your guess or if you are just making a random guess!

OH and we do have "official" names for each combination...
Reid Michael & Chase Logan

Chandler Louise & Riley Marie

Reid Michael & Chandler Louise

Compare & Contrast

C on her first trip to the zoo in November of 2008. She was just a baby!!

C at the same spot in the zoo yesterday! Look at those long arms and long legs!